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[ May 19th 2005 @ 0:29am ] |
I am sitting here thinking of what to write and one thing comes to mind...
001 Don't drink a 2 lt and a half of diet mountain dew in the course of 8 hours you will remain wide awake way past your sanity point.
Random thoughts that I must write down:
001 You say that I need to move on and let go of my past. I say to you that by holding on to reality I am more stable than someone who is grasping at the future.
002 You ask me what I am waiting for when it comes to you and me... as I sit in silence and wonder if there is a you and me to become.
003 Why should I fall into love when everything good that has happened to me is right in front of my face?
004 How come when you are at a point in your life that you have the least you realize everything you trully have, but when you have everything you think that you are at your worst
005 I listen to the muscicians of today and ask myself why can't I be like them... I wonder how many of them thought the very same thing.
006 Pessimism... the beast that leads to negativity but without it you never realize just how good life can be.
Well that is all the thoughts for now... I will talk to you guys again soon maybe...
Erin Nicole
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[ March 29th 2005 @ 0:53am ] |
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Lost in my own little world with only one way out. I can't reach to anyone to help me out of this world because I created it with my own thoughts and dreams. The only thing I forgot about was someone. A person to hold me when it gets cold. To dry my tears when the outside world throws things my way. Some one to say great job. To congratulate me on my successes and help me with my faults. So I try to step outside into the bright world. I blink and step out. Instantly I can't stand it. I have no one to trust out here. I have to hide and look both ways with every step. The world continues without me but I must react as if I have been here the whole time. So how do I do this? Stay safe inside my world, but invite someone into it? I cant do it. I don't trust anyone. I can't I sometimes can't even trust myself. I want to love, but with wanting to love i grow to hate the people that couldn't love me or that I couldn't love. So how many people do i have to hate before I find the one I love? Hate is a strong, but inevitable feeling. Yes is goes away, but not without pain. So much pain in the past 20 years. So I ask you... if I should bleed with cuts of love rather than live without any scars... then where is my tourniquet. The one to stop the bleeding, but also the one that makes me so vulnerable that they could make me bleed for all eternity?
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[ March 5th 2005 @ 21:50pm ] |
Well I made another Lacuna Coil icon. It is my default and it also looks really good on my all black journal layout if you wanna check it out. I am about to head to bed here shortly. I am off to Stone Henge tomorrow and then cleaning, ironing, and super bowl on Sunday. So it is going to be a full weekend. I am getting sleepier just thinking about it. :0). Well I will hopefully get to see the interesting things that are happening in you guys' life if you post them. Hope everyone has a safe weekend if I don't talk to you before then.
Later
Erin Nicole
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[ January 27th 2005 @ 19:33pm ] |
That is all...
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